okay i just finished ranting about some rather unhappy stuff today, and i deleted the whole thing! like imagine lines and lines and lines and lines of words, and suddenly, a whoosh! and everything goes blank again. (: hmm, perhaps that wouldn't be considered as ranting per se, but somehow it feels strangely liberating. it's like, you've flushed away all the frustrations that have welled up inside you! or perhaps it has got something to do with my having a short term memory. which i think is alright, now that exams are over - at least, for the time being. ohwell, forgive and forget! but it depends on whether people deserve my forgiveness though. hahaha i bet i sound scary now. :D (hoho, but i'm serious. one more rubbish comment, and i'm going to retaliate. and when i do retaliate, methinks i will do it doubly hard. hmm i sound like shylock. we'll see.)

anyway! we got back all our exam results. (i was going to start this paragraph with 'on a lighter note', but it struck me in time that such an expression would be entirely inappropriate, not to say ironic.) hmm, honestly i don't know what to say; i was planning to sort of reflect consider - because i have most decidedly, sworn off using the word 'reflect' for the time being - how i've done in this round of exams, but now that i do come to it, i can't exactly think of anything. ahwell, in general i guess i'm quite happy with my scores, not to say infinitely thankful that i did fine. granted, some subjects like math and chinese were :/, and my eya average is equally :/, but i have also enough cause for celebration, methinks? haha fine so maybe 'celebration' is too extreme a word, but i certainly have enough cause to feel happy. (:

[oh, this cues for a long and rambling post. largely for my own entertainment, actually, considering i don't have much to do. don't read if you can help it, unless (well) you can't get to sleep. with a bit of luck, you might have already fallen unconscious just by reading up to this sentence! hahaha, then i could really go find a job as a hypnotist or something. :D]

hmm today was doomsday, technically, but shakespeare saved me from falling into the depths of depression on a friday. (hahaha, 'if there's only one thing that you'll take away from these 2 years of literature, let it be that you know how to spell shakespeare's name correctly.' i am amused. :D) math was sort of expected, considering that i couldn't calm myself down enough to tackle the paper properly, and that i was doing random cancellations all over the place, but i don't know, i think i could have done better? tell me that i'm stupid, but somehow i still don't really get the diameter question, grawr. :/

chinese, on the other hand, was unbearably painful. my zuowen! ): i hate to whine again, but i wish i was less careless hmphhh. especially considering the -6 thingy that practically killed my zuowen marks. argh and they're all such idiotic, random mistakes! but hmm, maybe i should look on the bright side and go 'hey, i changed some stuff in time, if not it would have been a horrendous -7', but considering the cap for penalizing wrong words stands at -7, and i am on the receiving end of a -6, it ain't much comfort either. oh i cry. :/ main paper was alright, i guess? but hoho, my chinese score has just plummeted to an all-new low.

literature, history and geograhpy were unexpected though. i thought i'd died at all my essays, because they seemed so irrelevant, rambling, and incoherent on hindsight. i didn't think i concluded satisfactorily for history / literature, the opposing stand didn't seem too strong for the geography thingamajig, and well, in general, i didn't know if i made any sense or not. so yes, i think that i'm awfully lucky to have the teachers actually understanding what i was trying to say. hmm, it would thus seem that i'm considerably stronger in my humanities, at least for this year. Oo haha maybe i should just persuade my parents to let me switch to triple humanities or something, no? but perhaps not; i wouldn't want to drop chemistry! (and in the first place, the most i would ask for is still doubles, 'cept my dad would never allow it, sigh. :/)

english was alright. (but my summary killed me, as usual.) philosophy was okay, except for the 'didn't read instructions carefully' thing which rendered one entire page of my answer useless. grrrr. i'm starting to ramble, go off on a tangent (okay now, why i am reverting back to mathematical language), and spout rubbish, so i think i should stop. i fervently hope that my gpa's still decent, grawr! but i think i probably didn't reach my target, so eeuch. okay now, i should just be happy and smile and uh, be happy. fine that so didn't make sense. -.-

hmm so ends the whole enchilada. my 2nd semester was quite conky because of lr and other random commitments, and i confess that i didn't exactly manage my time very well this time round. so it's sort of a miracle that i still did decently. (: hahaha, but now i need to buck up, seriously, so that next year it can be truly on my own ability and not just because i had enough luck this time round. but i do hope that lady luck will continue to be by my side, teehee. :D pre-exams was stressful enough, i concede, especially when the people around you don't exactly want to place pressure on you and that kind of thing, and ultimately all the stress comes from inside you. at moments i almost crumbled, which was scary enough (and i think this is the first year i ever broke down halfway during a schoolterm, and when i mean break down it really means a total malfunction), because sometimes i didn't know what to feel? like, technically, some things are already good enough, but somehow there's just this extremely mean thing within the brain that tells you 'no, that's not too good, you can do better, aim higher, yada yada yada'. it's good as initial inspiration and motivation, i guess, but it starts to hurt when it's taken too far. and that's something i've learnt, yes. (: haha, when people angst about how the world is unfair to them, i angst about how i'm unfair to myself. how, ingenious. xD

oh yes i almost forgot. first choir practice after a long, long time was much love, hahaha. :D except our voices were all weird and airy, and we had to do super tough songs (argh the rhythm of 'a tisket a tasket' kills). which, without saying, is not the most ideal combination. como tu looks scary! but it sounds cool too, all the dissonances and stuff. (: i think my brain is attuned to dissonances; i don't know whether to cheer or to weep, really. oh, and speaking of which, i wish bach decided to write in uh, c-flat major instead of c-sharp major, grawr. while i play stuff with all the random sharps littered all over the place, whatever music, or should i say noise, that comes out becomes interpreted by my brain in flats, which totally defeats the purpose of playing a piece in a sharp key. (and there's a tone colour difference even between enharmonic notes, something i have yet to figure out, sadly.) so eek, i am half tempted to rewrite my entire bach fugue score out in flats - because to me it makes ten million times more sense in flats - but knowing that that would take me another 1 week, no, 1 month, has put me off that course of action. i don't have much time to waste. so well, i'll have to stick with sharps then? (hoho i just realized, that all my pieces are in flat keys! except debussy which has well, undefined tonality, hahaha. :D)

on yet another note, netball carn & drama night 'o7! apparently they're on the same day, or so i've heard. 213 will do really well! :D except people like julie and simin shouldn't get themselves injured and out of the game - because otherwise i would have to play GA and that would spell some serious trouble for the class. anyway do get well soon okay! (: and hmm, since we're on the subject, dear hand / finger, please do get well soon too. i'm sorry playing defence killed you. :/

this post is overly morbid, i conclude. i must have made at least 7 references to 'kill', 'die', or otherwise. argh before anyone comes to me and accuses me of having violent tendencies, let me hereby clarify that those words are used in a well, figurative sense? ohno i'm getting delirious.

rubbish comments must have killed my brain cells.

(haha, and there i did it again. -.-)

or zongmin, in english, chinese or - okay, not really otherwise.

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lives, writes, sings, plays the piano, and attempts to sound intellectual at times (conclusion: fails rather miserably).

loves music (almost strictly classical, hurhur & inclusive of faziolis!), literature (& also the sciences - no they are not in conflict), making hopelessly lame puns, laughter, white/milk chocolate, cheesecake, the world & the people in it. list not exhaustive, by the way.

wants the world to be filled with peace, joy and love, and also wants (perhaps a little more selfishly) to be happy, plus lead a life of purpose. that would be more than enough. (:

oh, and she likes embarking on her own 'free hugs!' campaigns after exams and the like; not really sure why. D: (at any rate, you can tell that she's random enough.)

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